Saturday, August 16, 2025

Is anyone else hot?

Maintaining weight is easier than losing it. I need to return to basic steps (having fresh food in the house, making dinners instead of purchasing them, always packing lunch) but also, training my body not to need.

Thursday, I did a fine job of only eating at mealtime. The meals were bigger than they needed to be, but there was no snacking, no grazing. However, by dinner my system was, I don't know. Empty? I have gotten used to always having something to digest. I developed an uncomfortable case of gas, not in my bowels, in my stomach. It was distressing, uncomfortable, painful. This is a thing that happens sometimes when I eat less.

And then there's the kind of hunger that is disorienting, making me confused, irritable, difficult to concentrate. There is a way through this, but like I said, it takes work. And since the middle of the summer, I have either been on vacation, where the rules are different, or very busy and away from home.

Home makes for good eating habits. I never thought of it like that before.

Distance: 4 miles
Duration: 37:09
Pace: 9:17

Great run. Hot, yes -- it's noon! But I felt good, warmed up, no tightness, no pain (okay, slight pain) good posture, nice pace. Felt great!

Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 84° 
Climate: hot!
Mood: good

Stretches: yes
Water: yes
Weight: 165 lbs. (+2.0)

Planks: TBA
Push-ups: TBA
Sit-ups: TBA

It's Hot! Playlist
HOT TO GO! - Chappell Roan
Hot For Teacher - Van Halen
Hot N Cold - Katy Perry
Hot In Herre - Nelly
Hot Stuff - Donna Summer
Warm - Haim ft. Charlie XCX
Hot Blooded - Foreigner
Gonna Make You Sweat - C + C Music Factory ft. Martha Wash
Warm Leatherette - The Normal
Send My Love (To Your New Lover) - Adele

Thursday, August 14, 2025

Own heart beating.

Exhausting myself this week. Long days, long nights, and the heat. I don't like to complain about heat, I much prefer it to the cold. It truly has had an effect upon me. 

I really should never go out after Dark Room. Socializing is fun, but going to bed at midnight is no longer a practical option for me, not ever. Bed by ten is ideal. But not on Tuesday. Nor on Wednesday. Nor on Thursday, or Friday. Not this week. 

And yet, I run.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 29:15
Pace: 9:25

Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 72°
Climate: sunny & bright
Mood: bit angsty

Stretches: yes
Water: yes
Weight: 163 lbs. (+1.0)

Man bytes dog.
Much of the current weight fluctuation relates to circumstance. Went to a ball game last night. We are also going to be eating out tonight -- and another ball game tomorrow night. It's a lot.

Planks: yes
Pushups: yes

155-164 BPM Playlist
Make Your Move - Kenny Loggins
Beat On the Brat - The Ramones
The Long Hair of Death - Stereolab
No Love Lost - LCD Soundsystem
Don't Fence Me In (The Bachelor Remix) - David Byrne
Leaving Las Vegas - Sheryl Crow
Thank You For Hearing Me - SinĂ©ad O'Connor

Tuesday, August 12, 2025

I can handle my shit.

My goal this year has been consistency. That, whatever else is happening, that I run every other day. Also, that I not run two days in a row. Take that break, even when I am desirous to move. Run, rest, repeat.

So far this year I have run as many times as I did in the entirety of 2017, which was a year that involved a lot of travel, and a lot of distraction. A wedding, a graduation, a fatal illness. Ninety-nine runs in 2025, as of today.

Many year I run between, let's say, one hundred and one hundred and ten times. Two years ago, in 2023, I ran almost two hundred times, which isn't normal at all. No idea why I did that.

At this rate, I hope to have run between 160 and 170 times by New Year's. That's a lot. But I think I can do that.

Distance: 2.34 miles
Duration: 27:09
Pace: 11:35

So, anyway. Had to take an extra day. These days are hot, and I am listening to my body. That's good, too. Take that break.

Also, we spent a day (and two nights) this past weekend at Cedar Point. Okay, so now summer is over. Just kidding, it's not. We have two baseball games to attend just this week. It's crazy.

My spouse encouraged me to ride more ride than I would have desired to, but I am all right. I have a real discomfort with heights, but there were some special moments. Daddy wanted to see all the young college students doing their dancing and their singing before they all return to college. Is that creepy? Of course it is. Totes creep.

Route: Forest Hill Run
Temperature: 75°
Climate: overcast & humid
Mood: all right

Eesh. Shooting pains in my left calf. Right heel still still. I'm a mess. A hot mess.

Stretches: yes
Water: yes
Weight: 162 lbs. (+2.0)

Portion control, yo.

Planks: yes
Pushups: yes

Running Summer Playlist
Walking On Sunshine - Katrina & the Waves ft. Carstn & Agent Zed
Ways to Go - Grouplove 
Coming Back to Me - Kasabian
Happy Customers - Two Door Cinema Club
American Pie (L'Tric Remix) - Don McLean
I Can Do It With a Broken Heart - Taylor Swift
Saving Up - Dom Dolla
Espresso (Mark Ronson x FNZ Working Later Remix) - Sabrina Carpenter
Nobody Else - The S.L.P.

I don't know. I think these playlists kinda suck.

Saturday, August 09, 2025

Moving at one million miles an hour.

Increasingly now, numbness in my hands. Mostly the right, but also the left. Is this poor circulation? Nerve damage? At the moment it is merely unpleasant. It wakes me earlier than I'd like and makes it impossible to go back to sleep. 

Distance: 4 miles
Duration: 35:54
Pace: 8:58

Welcome to the Pleasuredome - Frankie Goes to Hollywood (1984)
Welcome to the Pleasuredome (Escape Act Video Mix)
Relax (Come Fighting)
War
Two Tribes
Born To Run
Wish (The Lads Were Here)
Krisco Kisses
The Only Star In Heaven
The Power of Love

Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 80°
Climate: sunny & HOT!
Mood: good!

We were Frankie Fans. Relax had been released in late 1983, and was rattling around on MTV — but only a little — in early 1984. It was part of the mix, the general wash of British disco that was worming its way into my consciousness.

In summer I participated in the Experiment in International Living (EIL) and after a fraught couple of weeks engaged in culture and language training, we flew to Spain. The first night was spent in Madrid, before taking buses to our month long homestay in Lugo.

The bunch of us, twelve nervous American teenagers, were at a disco talking and drinking. I wasn't much of a dancer then, I had only ever been on a dancefloor a couple times over the past couple years. but Footloose was a thing and I tried to get over myself. I love music. But I didn't know how to dance.

The synthesized bass line for an extended mix of Relax (the New York Mix, I believe) it had a prolonged, melody-free intro, and I was distracted. "What is this song? I know this song. What is this song?" It built and built and I needed to know what it was. When the beat dropped, I think I actually shouted, and I got up from the table to take the floor. I didn't know what I was going to do, but I needed to be out there.

I've been chasing that high for a very long time.

Stretches: yes
Water: yes
Weight: 160 lbs. (-1.0)

The original double-album for Pleasuredome included several interstitial gags and songs that are not part of what is currently the official release (on CD and also streaming services) but they are slow songs, anyway, like Bacharach's San Jose and the Liverpudlian classic Ferry Cross the Mersey, so I didn't want to run to them, anyway.

Planks: yes
Pushups: yes

Yesterday I had a big cookie, a scoop of ice cream team, and popcorn. I didn’t even enjoy the popcorn, it was too salty. A snack between/after every meal. That’s not necessary.

Thursday, August 07, 2025

Run into you sometimes.

Oof. Some days I can feel my age. And then I ask myself, have I ever actually felt better than this? I have a hernia, that was thirty years ago. Thought I would need to wear compression pants the rest of my life, wore them about five years. What I learned was that if I gained weight (or wore boxers instead of briefs) I would hurt down there. So I try not to gain weight, and for the most part I haven't hurt down there in thirty years. 

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 28:10
Pace: 9:05

Now there's this thing in my wrist. I worry its a symptom of something great, like something to do wit my circulation. But then, maybe it's just muscular. I work out. I do upper body exercises. I have also made a doctors appointment, it's good to see how balanced my humours may be.

Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 65°
Climate: clear & beautiful
Mood: good

We run. It is still summer. And yet, it is summer still.

Stretches: yes
Water: yes
Weight: 161 lbs. (-4.0)

Maintenance. Be smart, kid.

Planks: yes
Pushups: yes

Running Summer Mix
Murder On the Dancefloor (PNAU Remix) - Sophie Ellis-Bextor
123456- Fitz & the Tantrums
Dance Wiv Me  - Dizzee Rascal ft. Calvin Harris
Carried Away - Passion Pit
Big Energy - Latto
Levitating - Dua Lipa
Fortnight - Taylor Swift ft. Post Malone
Love Tonight - Shouse 

Well. Spotify is just culling from my own playlists now, that's hardly what you would call working.

Tuesday, August 05, 2025

This is not a charade.

Forty years ago was a good summer. A very good summer, a special summer. My brother was home from college, he'd just graduated from college and was churning out resumes on a dot matrix printer from his Apple Macintosh. We bonded over Heineken, chips with good French onion dip and weed.

We watched Miami Vice reruns, Night Flight, and Dave Letterman. I learned about new artists, or new to me, anyway. The Cure. The Smiths. New Order. Fishbone. We watched strange videos, and laughed our asses off.

Live Aid, Back to the Future, Thunderdome, we made one DDT-V episode for July, and a second one for August, a clip show based entirely on the advertisements (that one was my idea). We had gone to Maine early in the season for my grandfather's 90th birthday, so the rest of the summer stretched out madly.

I was cited on my seventeenth birthday for trespassing in the Metroparks after dark (we had been playing assassin) and broke up with my girlfriend. I was ready to be a senior. And I was free.

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 29:23
Pace: 9:28

Summer 1985 Mixtape Playlist
Time Bomb Town - Lindsay Buckingham
Cry - Godley & Creme
The Power of Love - Huey Lewis & the News
Party at Ground Zero - Fishbone
If You Love Somebody Set Them Free - Sting
Money for Nothing (Live at Wembley Stadium) - Dire Straits ft. Sting 

Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 64°
Climate: sunrise & humid
Mood: good

Stretches: yes
Water: yes
Weight: 165 lbs. (+2.0)

We must mind our intake. Yesterday was like a day on vacation. Be careful. Moderation in all things.

Planks: yes
Pushups: yes

Sunday, August 03, 2025

I don't want the world, I just want your half.

Welcome home. Numbness in my fingers, pain in my wrist. Is this diabetes?

Distance: 3.1 miles
Duration: 29:23
Pace: 9:28

So, yes. Good on ya, we got a run in right after getting home, unpacking, putting in a load of laundry, and on, and on. Back on my head.

Route: Forest Hill Loop
Temperature: 73°
Climate: sunset & humid
Mood: all right

Stretches: yes
Water: yes
Weight: 163 lbs. (+3.0)
Planks: yes
Pushups: yes

WRUW | Erie Effusion (Live)
Ana Ng - They Might Be Giants
Istanbul (Not Constantinople) - They Might Be Giants
Balalaika Gap (158 BPM) - Camper Van Beethoven
Turquoise Jewelry - Camper Van Beethoven
Barbarism Begins at Home - The Smiths
Heart Shaped World - Billy Bragg
Soul Awakening - China Crisis